[SIZE=7]The pain, that's all I'm able to really remember. I thought I knew darkness, but it would appear I didn't until this eve. This darkness invaded into your blood, made you feel like you were on fire, burning from the inside. It consumes you with no escape. It's somethin that cannot be described. Even if I was able to, would I want to?

I was able to crawl my way to Virgil before succumbin to it. When I woke, Kenji was there, also affected by the same darkness. Kassa, Lu, and Alanna, the looks on their faces, I think the nightmares will return just because of those looks. How will I be able to erase those memories? Do I really want to erase them, knowin it will aid in my fight? Whatever was said, I do hope they know that it was not me. The darkness ... it seeks to consume all in it's path, no matter who you are. How can I use this to defeat my enemies without the darkness taking over? Should I allow it to take over? Is that what it wants, to devour those that are weak in spirit?

I am still weak, not sure if I will be able to move from the spot that I have managed to crawl to for rest. I don't think I want to move, but I know I will force myself to do so at the next crier's call of danger. Tis my duty to be able to help protect the ones I love. If I am able to do that, then I will live through the pain that runs through me.

This time, I can admit, I didn't go lookin for trouble, it found me all on it's own.[/SIZE]

[SIZE=7]The challenge that was presented to me this eve has really gotten me thinkin ... and sometimes me thinkin ain't good. I do know that I am gonna love this challenge and can't wait to get started on it. It will bring the much needed distraction I need from the nightmares. At least with this, it will give me somewhere to put my energies at besides waitin on that ... thing ... to send his minions after us or worryin about the guild.

All I can try ... no ... all I WILL do is my best and sometimes I'm even surprised at how good I really am. I have thanked the ones that have given me this challenge, now to live up to the task they have bestowed upon me. I will make them proud. In that, I have no doubt.[/SIZE]

[SIZE=7]Me and my big mouth went and did it again. Will I ever learn to keep it shut? Probably not. Did I know the consequences it would bring to the guild hall? Definitely not. I really do wish that ..... thing ... would fight fairly. First I get accosted by some type of royal guard in N'Rolav Fartown that sends me to the LM, did I keep my mouth shut, nope ... I started blabbin away, provokin him. He then decides to curse me ... no biggie really. Still, I didn't learn. To see him once again though ... I can actually say that I didn't run in fear this time. I stood my ground, knowin I didn't stand a chance against him, but I did it anyways. But for him to go and send his minions to destroy such a lovely place, that brings my blood to a boil. How can I help the ones that I've come to care for? What is the best way for me to proceed? I really don't know and it hurts, deep in my soul, a pain that will not deminish.

And now, I'll have ta worry about these new wounds and facing him with them. He's not going to take this lightly, I know. He's never been able to do that. How can I make him understand that I was tryin to protect the people I care about. I know eventually he will come around and see what I am tryin to explain. I just hope he doesn't get too mad at me for bein too careless.[/SIZE]

It's weird bein back in the lands again. So much has changed and now it would seem Lord BoBo is missin. Not sure where that monkey is, but hopefully he is found safe and sound soon. I'm startin to miss his antics along with a few others ............ I've never liked change and it only gets harder the older I get .... goin to have to figure these things out soon I suppose.